Taste the Rainbow - Transition Questions

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Yeah, I can, I can talk. We can do things. We're a group.

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Oh, right. But, uh, did we have something to say before we wanted to move on to that

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topic?

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Uh, you know, I would just shout out to all of our listeners, you know, be sure to follow

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know, comment, like, subscribe to our videos on YouTube channel. It'll definitely help

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us out. So please do that. Please do. We love you.

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Pretty, pretty please. We love you. Oh, yeah. That wasn't the subject though. But go ahead

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and bring up your, your, your topic. Yeah. So, um, my topic. This is a transition question.

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Oh, so, okay. When you guys were, you know, kind of thinking about transitioning, were

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you afraid of losing your friends?

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100%. Definitely. Very much. My friends, for me in particular, because I didn't really

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have much family to lean on to or like everything to me. So yes. Um, but you know, yeah, whenever

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that's, that's, that's this thing. Like I was, I want, I didn't want to lose my friends,

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but I did it anyway. That just goes to show like how miserable and depressed I was and

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unhappy with why I looked, how I looked in the mirror.

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I struggled with that quite a bit. Uh, like, I want to say like a year leading up to me

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transitioning. That was like one of the, that was like one of the final things I was fighting

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with was like, do I want to lose everybody? Yeah. Like, because I thought that was what

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was going to happen. And then you're like also scared of like, you know, well, if they

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are my friends, so are they really still, are they really my friend or they just like,

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you know, chasers. That was kind of the pushing point for me was like, you know what, fuck

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them. If they're not going to accept me for me, like, I don't, do I really need them in

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my life anyways?

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You know, well, yeah. Um, you're going to lose people in your life for sure.

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So I guess like, why, what kind of helped you guys like overcome that fear? Because

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that sounds very terrifying. I mean, I know like looking back on it can be very easy to

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say like, Oh, well, like, I'm, I'm going to be me. And if they don't accept me for being

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me, then fuck them. But it can be, I imagine in that kind of situation, very terrifying.

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Well, for me, um, is I was in the military at the time, you know, so I was kind of already

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like disconnected, like physically from everybody, you know, I think it was a little bit easier

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for me to, to take that next step because I already like, I'm moving around all the time.

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You know, I don't, I don't really have those same connections in my life as everybody else

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has. Yeah.

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All those important people in your life, like on a dated, like day to day basis around you

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all the time. I'm just like, I'm fucking everywhere, you know, it's like, I was already kind of

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disconnected, I think. Yeah. So when I was like deciding on what my friends thought versus

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my happiness, I'm like, what, what power did they have in my life? You know, as it was,

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though, it was kind of an easy decision for me, I think.

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For me, uh, for a while, I thought that, uh, I would not be able to lose my friends and

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I wouldn't be able to do things because I tried to be like, I try to like tell people,

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like I try to tell some of my closest friends and stuff like that. But I mean, like, when

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I did come to terms with that and start exploring being trans and come and like coming out to

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people, I, we're already at the age of like, everyone was busy with their life. Like some

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of us had kids. Um, some of my friends, you know, had a job like full time jobs, they're

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moving away. You know, we barely, I barely saw my friends as much as I did in high school

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anyway. So that part was easy. It was just like, I don't know, not being able to talk,

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not being able to like get in touch with certain people for a long time was hard. But I really

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just, you know, at that time, it was time to grow up in my opinion. I was just like,

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you know, I'm going to lose friends. That's why I've been told my entire life. I'm just

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going to lose people. It doesn't matter if I'm transitioning or not. So I just thought

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of this as, you know, part of growing up, shed off my branches and started to, you know,

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reach out and grow new ones. Try to, and that's why I started making new friends. And eventually

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I met her. So like, yeah, it's, it's hard. It's hard to overcome the fear, but you can

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overcome it. Obviously.

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What about our audience? Does anybody in our audience have questions about stuff like that?

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Don't make me call on you when I call on you. Joe, what questions do you have?

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We can move along while they think of questions. Oh, yeah, everyone just dropped off. We don't

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have any watchers anymore. They were like, Nope, no, bye. Bye.

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Oh, that's got too serious. Yeah, I think, I think that's, you know, I think that's a

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really good kind of kind of point that if you want to be like truly happy in your life,

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then you, you have to live your full like authentic self.

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Oh, yeah, for sure. Yeah.

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Is that all you wanted to ask us about that?

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Yeah. That's, that's pretty much, that's pretty much it. Unless you guys have anything else

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that you want to like talk about with the subject.

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I would say just reiterating, you know, doesn't matter if you're transitioning, you're, I

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mean, transitioning from gender, transitioning from moving or anything in life, any transition

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in life, you're going to lose people, but that makes room for better people.

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So yeah, yeah, 100%. You'll, you'll make room for people that'll accept you for who you

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are and that'll make you like that much happier.

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Yes, exactly. There's always, it's always, it's always a process, but you'll get through

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it.

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Yeah. Yeah.

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So, for your thoughts, my thoughts.